Whenever I see it, it looks right at me
Into my soul, and I look into his
I can see all the pain
I can see all the sadness in his eyes
When I look away, I push it all down
I try to forget it all
I'm happy, I'm with my friends
I put on an act, to show I'm fine
But every day, I get reminded
I always remember that face
I always see what he's been through
I wonder how he is?
Oh well, he'll be fine
But... What if he isn't?
Will he cope?
I guess I'll have to wait and see
His face getting more tired,
His pain and sadness increasing,
His sanity slowly slipping away
He looks so scared now...
Every time I pass the mirror,
I see him, I see his eyes
Where am I?
I can't see anything
What's going on?
I'm lost..
I'm too scared to move...
I can't move sideways
I can't move back
I'm lost...
Am I dead?
What's going to happen to me...
Can anyone hear me?
I'm lost...
But I start moving forward
Because I know I'll be okay
There's always a light at the end of a tunnel
I just have to keep moving forward
You told me you loved me
You told me you cared
You said we'd be together forever
You lied
You told me you were seeing a friend
You told be you'd be back
You said you wouldn't be long
You lied
You played with my heart
As if it were a puppet
And when you were done
You threw it away
But you underestimated me
I'll get my revenge
I always do
Just like last time
I was once Scott
Then I was Jason
But now I'm James
And I'll soon be Luke
So now you're gone
And so is your "friend"
Who will be next?
Will it be you?
You scream all day
It's really gay
You hurt my ears
I'd rather run with the bears
So I'm on my knees
And I'm begging you please
Stop all your screaming!
I hope I'm just dreaming…
But I'll put that aside
Or our fists will collide
You can be kinda nice
And you give good advice
Writing this thing
Is as horrible as I sing
So I'm going to bed
Or I might just drop dead
But I'll leave you with a quote
Because I'm not on a boat
"Holy buttforgill I lost me pants"
And be careful of those scary ants!
I am 5 years old
I have a mother and a father
My mother loves me
But my father does not
I don't know why
His eyes are always blood shot
His face is full with hatred
His heart is filled with nothing
I hear his footsteps
When he comes up the stairs
I try to hide
But he always finds me
He picks me up
And throws me across the room
I'm barely alive
So he finishes me off
I was 5 years old
I had a mother and a father
My mother loved me
But my father killed me
You called me names
You laughed at me
You always stared at me
You wanted me dead
You'd beat me up
You'd yell and scream
You wanted me gone
You wanted me dead
So you tried to kill me
You got a knife and slashed at my neck
You wanted my blood on the walls
You wanted me dead
You enjoyed trying to kill me
You looked like you were having so much fun
You had a smile on your face
You wanted me dead
But it didn't last long
Not after I took the knife from you
And started slashing back
I wanted you dead
You tried to run
But I cut your leg
So you couldn't stand up
I wanted you dead
You saw the hatred in my eyes
But you also saw
You called me weak
You called me a coward
You said I was nothing
But I'll show you
I'll show you I'm not weak
I'll show you I'm just as strong as you
I'll show you I can do everything you can
I'll show you
I'll show I'm not a coward
I'll show you how fearless I am
I'll show you my love for danger
I'll show you
I'll show you I'm not nothing
I'll show you I'm my own person
I'll show you I'm alive, just like you
I'll show you
I'll show you I can hold a gun
I'll show you how well I can aim it
I'll show you how real the bullet is
I'll show you
I'll show you your blood, that's on the floor
I'll show you how lifeless you are now
When I was younger
I thought everything was perfect
I thought everyone was kind
And I thought everyone was friends
When I got older, I realised I was wrong
No-one is perfect
Not everyone is kind
And not everyone is friends
The world is at war
Because nothing is perfect
No-one get's exactly what they want
But they will do anything to get everything
They kill
They steal
They ruin families
They ruin themselves
They make it worse
They create more killers
They create more druggies
They create more pain
In the end
The world will be in chaos
No-one will be friendly
And no-one will be alive
I try to avoid them
But it's not possible
They always find me
Wherever I hide
I come home with bruises
And a pain in my leg
My family worries
But I lie and say I'm fine
They followed me home
They waited outside
until it was dark
And then they left
The next day, I go outside
And they're waiting
They start to laugh
So I run as fast as I can
They chase me down the street
And they manage to corner me
I fear for my life
And the beating begins
After they're finished
They leave my still body
I don't move an inch
I don't even blink
Because I'm dead
You love it more
then you love me
It took over
And now you forgot
I hate to see you in so much pain
Everyday I cry myself to sleep
You're always upset
And you never do anything
You feel nothing
You have no feelings
It took your soul
And now I miss you
I wish you could forget it
But it runs your life
Please come back to me
And leave that horrible drug
Whenever I see it, it looks right at me
Into my soul, and I look into his
I can see all the pain
I can see all the sadness in his eyes
When I look away, I push it all down
I try to forget it all
I'm happy, I'm with my friends
I put on an act, to show I'm fine
But every day, I get reminded
I always remember that face
I always see what he's been through
I wonder how he is?
Oh well, he'll be fine
But... What if he isn't?
Will he cope?
I guess I'll have to wait and see
His face getting more tired,
His pain and sadness increasing,
His sanity slowly slipping away
He looks so scared now...
Every time I pass the mirror,
I see him, I see his eyes
You told me you loved me
You told me you cared
You said we'd be together forever
You lied
You told me you were seeing a friend
You told be you'd be back
You said you wouldn't be long
You lied
You played with my heart
As if it were a puppet
And when you were done
You threw it away
But you underestimated me
I'll get my revenge
I always do
Just like last time
I was once Scott
Then I was Jason
But now I'm James
And I'll soon be Luke
So now you're gone
And so is your "friend"
Who will be next?
Will it be you?
You scream all day
It's really gay
You hurt my ears
I'd rather run with the bears
So I'm on my knees
And I'm begging you please
Stop all your screaming!
I hope I'm just dreaming…
But I'll put that aside
Or our fists will collide
You can be kinda nice
And you give good advice
Writing this thing
Is as horrible as I sing
So I'm going to bed
Or I might just drop dead
But I'll leave you with a quote
Because I'm not on a boat
"Holy buttforgill I lost me pants"
And be careful of those scary ants!
I am 5 years old
I have a mother and a father
My mother loves me
But my father does not
I don't know why
His eyes are always blood shot
His face is full with hatred
His heart is filled with nothing
I hear his footsteps
When he comes up the stairs
I try to hide
But he always finds me
He picks me up
And throws me across the room
I'm barely alive
So he finishes me off
I was 5 years old
I had a mother and a father
My mother loved me
But my father killed me
You called me names
You laughed at me
You always stared at me
You wanted me dead
You'd beat me up
You'd yell and scream
You wanted me gone
You wanted me dead
So you tried to kill me
You got a knife and slashed at my neck
You wanted my blood on the walls
You wanted me dead
You enjoyed trying to kill me
You looked like you were having so much fun
You had a smile on your face
You wanted me dead
But it didn't last long
Not after I took the knife from you
And started slashing back
I wanted you dead
You tried to run
But I cut your leg
So you couldn't stand up
I wanted you dead
You saw the hatred in my eyes
But you also saw
You called me weak
You called me a coward
You said I was nothing
But I'll show you
I'll show you I'm not weak
I'll show you I'm just as strong as you
I'll show you I can do everything you can
I'll show you
I'll show I'm not a coward
I'll show you how fearless I am
I'll show you my love for danger
I'll show you
I'll show you I'm not nothing
I'll show you I'm my own person
I'll show you I'm alive, just like you
I'll show you
I'll show you I can hold a gun
I'll show you how well I can aim it
I'll show you how real the bullet is
I'll show you
I'll show you your blood, that's on the floor
I'll show you how lifeless you are now
When I was younger
I thought everything was perfect
I thought everyone was kind
And I thought everyone was friends
When I got older, I realised I was wrong
No-one is perfect
Not everyone is kind
And not everyone is friends
The world is at war
Because nothing is perfect
No-one get's exactly what they want
But they will do anything to get everything
They kill
They steal
They ruin families
They ruin themselves
They make it worse
They create more killers
They create more druggies
They create more pain
In the end
The world will be in chaos
No-one will be friendly
And no-one will be alive
I try to avoid them
But it's not possible
They always find me
Wherever I hide
I come home with bruises
And a pain in my leg
My family worries
But I lie and say I'm fine
They followed me home
They waited outside
until it was dark
And then they left
The next day, I go outside
And they're waiting
They start to laugh
So I run as fast as I can
They chase me down the street
And they manage to corner me
I fear for my life
And the beating begins
After they're finished
They leave my still body
I don't move an inch
I don't even blink
Because I'm dead
You love it more
then you love me
It took over
And now you forgot
I hate to see you in so much pain
Everyday I cry myself to sleep
You're always upset
And you never do anything
You feel nothing
You have no feelings
It took your soul
And now I miss you
I wish you could forget it
But it runs your life
Please come back to me
And leave that horrible drug
I used to be good
I used to care
I used to have a lot of friends
I used to
I used to make people feel better
I used to make people happy
I used to make people laugh
I used to
But the darkness took over
It encased my heart
And left nothing behind
I've changed
I make people scared, wherever I go
I leave pain in every footstep
And now I have very few friends
I've changed
I enjoy peoples pain
Their despair is my energy
And now their blood is on my hands
I'm a monster
I Kissed A Boy, With Poison On His Lips by UgleeMut, literature
Literature
I Kissed A Boy, With Poison On His Lips
Sometimes
When I think of you
My heart stops beating
And I can't breath
I used to believe
That I needed no other person
To be happy with who I am
But when you touched my skin
And kissed my lips
I felt beautiful
I was beautiful
All I can do now
Is remember
The poison on your lips
The warmth of your skin
The taste of your mouth
The way I got frustrated
When you would text me every single moment
The way your fingers would fold through mine
The perfect fit
Like the last puzzle piece
The way your hands sat firmly on my hips
Holding my body against yours
I remember
The way you looked at me
And smiled
And my heart melted into a pool of honey
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Don't look up.
Don't make eye contact.
Pretend you cant hear them.
Keep walking.
They'll never know.
Take a deep breath.
Dry your blood stained tears.
Pretend it doesn't hurt.
Hide the evidence.
He'll never know.
Tell them your not cold.
Your not burning inside.
You don't need to scream.
Keep breathing as if you actually care.
They'll never know.
It wasn't your fault.
You feel that guilt?
At least you tried.
Just avoid questions.
He'll never know.
Close your eyes.
hold your breath.
No ones looking.
Let the emptiness hide the pain.
They'll never know.